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           - When we got home, felt uncomfortable being in the living room space with Jessica, so took a nap

           - Brain felt very chaotic, couldn't sleep. Felt really hyped up and activated. Decided to try to IFS it:

             - Started with a new part. This is some kind of [distraction agent](../parts/distraction-agent.md). Just went around in my brain trying to throw distractions at me. It wanted to protect me from thinking about my feelings that were coming up about Erin.

          -  - Once distraction guy stepped aside, found that I had a familiar feeling in my chest / stomach. 

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          +  - Once distraction guy stepped aside, found that I had a familiar feeling in my chest / stomach: [Curious Longing Muppet](../parts/curious-longing-muppet.md). It was the first time seeing Erin in months, if only briefly. Confirming she still existed really got this part flared up. It was longing to know about her, hear her laugh, hear her talk about her work problems, etc. Kinda commiserated with that part. Cried a bit.

          +  - Once Curious Longing Muppet guy calmed down, noticed I was still having trouble sleeping. Felt like there was some dull fear there. Quickly identified it as [Scared Kid](../parts/scared-kid.md). Once I noticed it and started talking to it, it went from dull fear, to overwhelming and upset. Started screaming "Don't make me go in there, Don't make me go in there!", referring to the living room where Jessica was. I asked what it was afraid of. "That she'll hurt me. She's so mean and she hurts me!". I asked who. "Jessica!". Anybody else? "No!".

          +  - Thanked Scared Kid for warning me about danger, then told him that I was sorry I did a bad job at protecting it, and I'm sorry I let it get hurt so much. It really flared up and yelled at me that I did such a bad job and it got so badly hurt because I didn't protect it. It was very angry at me. I apologized again. Cried a bit. Then it calmed down. Sat with it for a while. Then kinda visualized hugging it. It calmed way down. Told it that I was ready to protect him, and that I was big and I knew what to do and he didn't need to worry. I asked if it was still scared, it said No.

          +  - Noticed I still couldn't sleep. Decided to explore that. Found a new guy. He was kinda dressed as a construction worker who was kindof up against the walls of my skull battling to keep the characters from the TV in the living room from entering my head. I could hear "Arrested Development" pretty clearly. This guy showed me that without him, the characters from TV kinda takeover my headspace, performing live on center stage in my brain. This guy was trying to keep them out, basically bracing against a big door that was being attacked by a crowd of characters trying to rush into my head. Tough work.

          +  - Covered my ears so I couldn't hear the TV... IMMEDIATELY calmed down. Stayed that way for a few minutes. Pure tranquility. Kinda fell asleep. But when I opened my eyes and looked around, I noticed that I felt super alert. Didn't actually want to sleep anymore. Thanked the [TV Bouncer Guy](../parts/tv-bouncer-guy.md). Checked in with the Scared Kid, he was fine. Everything felt online and confident, so I went into the living room. Everything went fine.

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6	6	- When we got home, felt uncomfortable being in the living room space with Jessica, so took a nap
7	7	- Brain felt very chaotic, couldn't sleep. Felt really hyped up and activated. Decided to try to IFS it:
8	8	- Started with a new part. This is some kind of [distraction agent](../parts/distraction-agent.md). Just went around in my brain trying to throw distractions at me. It wanted to protect me from thinking about my feelings that were coming up about Erin.
9		- - Once distraction guy stepped aside, found that I had a familiar feeling in my chest / stomach.
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	0	+ - Once distraction guy stepped aside, found that I had a familiar feeling in my chest / stomach: [Curious Longing Muppet](../parts/curious-longing-muppet.md). It was the first time seeing Erin in months, if only briefly. Confirming she still existed really got this part flared up. It was longing to know about her, hear her laugh, hear her talk about her work problems, etc. Kinda commiserated with that part. Cried a bit.
	1	+ - Once Curious Longing Muppet guy calmed down, noticed I was still having trouble sleeping. Felt like there was some dull fear there. Quickly identified it as [Scared Kid](../parts/scared-kid.md). Once I noticed it and started talking to it, it went from dull fear, to overwhelming and upset. Started screaming "Don't make me go in there, Don't make me go in there!", referring to the living room where Jessica was. I asked what it was afraid of. "That she'll hurt me. She's so mean and she hurts me!". I asked who. "Jessica!". Anybody else? "No!".
	2	+ - Thanked Scared Kid for warning me about danger, then told him that I was sorry I did a bad job at protecting it, and I'm sorry I let it get hurt so much. It really flared up and yelled at me that I did such a bad job and it got so badly hurt because I didn't protect it. It was very angry at me. I apologized again. Cried a bit. Then it calmed down. Sat with it for a while. Then kinda visualized hugging it. It calmed way down. Told it that I was ready to protect him, and that I was big and I knew what to do and he didn't need to worry. I asked if it was still scared, it said No.
	3	+ - Noticed I still couldn't sleep. Decided to explore that. Found a new guy. He was kinda dressed as a construction worker who was kindof up against the walls of my skull battling to keep the characters from the TV in the living room from entering my head. I could hear "Arrested Development" pretty clearly. This guy showed me that without him, the characters from TV kinda takeover my headspace, performing live on center stage in my brain. This guy was trying to keep them out, basically bracing against a big door that was being attacked by a crowd of characters trying to rush into my head. Tough work.
	4	+ - Covered my ears so I couldn't hear the TV... IMMEDIATELY calmed down. Stayed that way for a few minutes. Pure tranquility. Kinda fell asleep. But when I opened my eyes and looked around, I noticed that I felt super alert. Didn't actually want to sleep anymore. Thanked the [TV Bouncer Guy](../parts/tv-bouncer-guy.md). Checked in with the Scared Kid, he was fine. Everything felt online and confident, so I went into the living room. Everything went fine.
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