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           # Therapy 5/27/2026

          +- "She has enough information to decide how she feels. She's putting the onus of her feelings on you" SUPER HELPED.

           - Am I allowed to keep my feelings about Erin private? What does that look like

          +- Struggling with reality and perception being scrambled. Not trying to defend the legitimacy or morality of thr relationship, just reality.

          +  - goaded a few times into talking about what I like about Erin. Is that reasonable? Do I have to?

          +  - When I do talk about Erin, I get "You're wrong. You aren't seeing her clearly. She's boring and selfish. Everybody can see that except you. You only think she's interesting because she's pretty."

           - Erin was the first time I had a real sense that life did have some magic in it. Sometimes the spark is real and there are circumstances where it's not just a neverending hellscape of grim realities that you have to toughen yourself against. Sometimes the pretty girl has a soul that can recognize yours and against all odds you found her and a connection formed. What a strange life. How lucky to have found this, even if it is fleeting.

           - About connection:

             - real or imagined I still feel the thread of connection there. how?

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1	1	# Therapy 5/27/2026
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	3	+- "She has enough information to decide how she feels. She's putting the onus of her feelings on you" SUPER HELPED.
3	4	- Am I allowed to keep my feelings about Erin private? What does that look like
	5	+- Struggling with reality and perception being scrambled. Not trying to defend the legitimacy or morality of thr relationship, just reality.
	6	+ - goaded a few times into talking about what I like about Erin. Is that reasonable? Do I have to?
	7	+ - When I do talk about Erin, I get "You're wrong. You aren't seeing her clearly. She's boring and selfish. Everybody can see that except you. You only think she's interesting because she's pretty."
4	8	- Erin was the first time I had a real sense that life did have some magic in it. Sometimes the spark is real and there are circumstances where it's not just a neverending hellscape of grim realities that you have to toughen yourself against. Sometimes the pretty girl has a soul that can recognize yours and against all odds you found her and a connection formed. What a strange life. How lucky to have found this, even if it is fleeting.
5	9	- About connection:
6	10	- real or imagined I still feel the thread of connection there. how?