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- Was kinda taking this all pretty personally. Then started to feel indignant and kinda resolved against it. Then I started to ask it questions in a much firmer tone, met it at its level. Started pushing it around. It responded. It couldn't fight back. Started to almost get some meaningful answers.
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- Lawyer, translator guy piped up: "I think that thing must be a part. It's not you"
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- So I asked it, and sure enough, it was not self, it was a previously unseen big powerful part. Calm and dark, and very large. One of its jobs is to protect me from the little mouthy bastard. It works. Little mouthy bastard shuts up. Lots of imagery of it physically restraining little mouthy bastard. Example: At one point little mouthy bastard shut up because big dark protector thing had it pinned to the ground with its foot, slowly threating to crush its ribs and push through its neck.
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+- This part seemed massive. Visually, seemed to tower over the others like a building towers over people.
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- This part's presence does calm me down, but in a way that feels dark. I think I've felt this guy take over before. It makes me feel big and dark. Unshakeable. Invincible.
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- Asked this part to step aside and sit with us. It did.
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- Little mouthy bastard relaxed. Started answering questions. It was weird. Every time it started to get mouthy, big dark dude just looked at him and he got back in line. I tried to lead with curiosity and friendliness. That drew him out. But when he got belligerent, the other guy pushed him back in his place.